I felt that I was worthless to my family and society. I reached the brink of desperation, and so I decided to commit suicide. My health worsened, and I vomited blood due to excessive consumption of drugs/alcohol,/smoking. NO ONE TO TAKE CARE OF ME - although my people were around me. I wrote the exam once again but in vain because I got 02 marks in that exam again. to 8.30 a.m.Īfter working for more than 12 hours a day, I burned the midnight oil studying Algebra, which was a nightmare. So I started working with a Chartered Accountant as a part-time job from 7.30 a.m. The pay was negligible, and I had a tough time with family members. I sought a job in that city (Chennai) and finally got a job as a supervisor in one of the textile export companies with a salary of Rs.250 per month for eight hours of duty. My family members were very much annoyed about my failure, and I did not find anyone to comfort or guide me at that time.
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I was greatly disappointed as I was disqualified from securing a decent job. But the students who copied my papers got 50 marks! I rewrote the exam FIVE TIMES, and every time I scored only 02 MARKS. I could not complete my graduation within the stipulated time (three years) due to this. This subject called Algebra was after me. But every day, I went to the temple ceremoniously and performed the puja in my house every morning. Whenever there was a college strike, I stood in the front to lead it. I indulged in ragging, brawling, and eve-teasing. And I started to smoke and became a chain smoker.
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I was frustrated as I could not secure good results. My Lifestyle ChangedĪfter that, my lifestyle changed completely. Out of these two subjects, one was Algebra, wherein I had scored 02 marks out of 100 though the minimum marks per question are five marks. My papers were sent for re-evaluation, and fortunately, I had passed in two more papers but failed in two others. He sent for re-evaluation and got the same results. I told him that I had written all my papers very well and did not know how I had failed. My elder brother fired me because of the poor results. In spite of all my hard work, I managed to pass in only four papers out of eight articles in the first year. I became a sincere, serious, and religious person. (Math) and tried to complete my graduation to get a decent job. I also used to play county-level cricket matches and won many trophies. I was sincere in my school studies and stood in the top three ranks of the class. I passed my matriculation exams (10th) with second class and joined higher secondary by God's grace. After that, I decided to concentrate on my studies. I lost my father when I was in class 10th. I was very weak in my studies and stood second last in the class. We were four sons, and I was the youngest in our family. He dedicated it to one of the RAMA TEMPLES at Badhrachalam in Tamil Nadu.
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During the daytime, my father wrote 'SRI RAM NAAM, 'and he was the first one to write it more than 10 million times during those days. I was strictly advised to do it diligently for the uplifting of my spiritual life. After him, I went into the pooja room and performed pujas to all Hindu gods.Īs per the custom, I went for the bhajan at the temple every day.
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with prayer in our special prayer room and continued until 7:00 a.m. He was never negligent in performing pooja/worship to all Hindu gods every day. When I turned 13, I looked up to my father as a role model. As I grew up, I strictly followed the footsteps of my father. Every day he used to get up early in the morning at 4.00 a.m. I was born in an orthodox Hindu family, and my father was a pious and well-known person.